Leyley’s blog

i’ve created a new blog in sanrio , so i wont use this blog anymore ..

my new blog is http://blog.hellokitty.com/monyakoley

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today is April Fool .. only the fools will be deceived .. i felt depressed , cuz i deceived him .. why do i say so ? well , let me relate this matter .. when our duty , we are being prompted by a sudden impulse .. two bad and silly girls . we planned to deceive our bf .. so , the best plan we found is to lie both of them that we were falling down from the lobby stairs , so our forehead get huge ‘ lebam ‘ , therefore , we were shamed to face our ugly appearance , so we hid in the toilet .. hah .. so fool , rite ? but we only wanted to play all the time , so we did a really stupid thing .. i smsed her bf that she had falling down from the staircase and she got really big ’ lebam ‘ on her forehead and she cried out loud .. to escape herself from the other people , she hid in the toilet so ppl wont noticed her ugly look , then she did smsed my bf to tell him as the things i used to tell her bf too .. so , i used our make up materials to help her deisgn her new huge ‘ lebam ‘ middle of her forehead .. i did used pinkish blusher , browned eye shadow , black eye liner to complete this ‘ lebam ‘ painting on her forehead .. it was kinda real ! so cant deny that i have tha talent to help the actors to paint their fake ‘ lebams ‘ .. haha .. the huge ‘ lebam ‘ done , then i captured her photo .. afterwards she sent the photo to her bf .. i cant do the same thing , cuz my bf had changed new mobile phone , and his mms havent activate yet .. both of us were waiting for the guys to reply .. we have been waited for quite long time .. around half hour later , her bf calling her , she picked up the phone then continued to deceiver her bf .. afterwards , my bf calling me too .. we knew , they did really anxious for us , but we were taking their feeling to be joke .. when i reached home , after facial , after bath .. i phoned my dear .. his voice sounded to be very intense .. he kept asking me why i did so careless .. both of us started to argue .. but , i have no courage to tell him dat i deceived him . i think if i do so , i will hurt him much , so i pretended to be the victim .. i started to seek the sympathy from him .. then , he comfort me .. till i feel asleep .. after hung up his phone , my tears started to flow .. why .. why i din treat him sincerely ? of cuz, i did suspected that his feels to me , although i know that he treats me honestly .. but im being obsessed at the time too .. sorry dear , i didnt meant to hurt u , because i know u wanted treat me well since the first dat we been together .. i love you too .. but dear , can you trust me all the time ? because dear , u should know .. with every ounce of my being , im all yours forevermore .. i will never fall to another guy , i promised .. just want to tell u , u have decorate my life with big love , without you , i cant survive .. cant live anymore ..

night rain

suddenly here comes the thunderstorm in the evenin , after a burning hot day .. on the way back to my home around 3pm , i feel my skin is scalded by the sun .. my skin can feel the pain , and my soul is burning , while myself can imagine dat these will caused me schizophrenia .. cuz i’m afraid of being hot , and i’m easy to get perspire .. my blood circulation is good eh ~ that’s why , im looking young all the way .. =p . oh yea ~ my bestie yauyau is coming back today .. but i dun even have time to hang up with him .. cuz my prince will meet me tonight .. hehe ^^ .. sorry yau , will catch u at other time.. this evening , i went to fetch my lil bro from tuition .. rain heavily , he escot me .. from my home to my home again .. after dat , we went to dine at secret recipe .. hmm .. we have good appetites today .. so full ~ start form half pass 8 will be the ’ world saving day ‘ .. in order to be a part of the world rescuer , we ate quickly .. then , we went back to his second home . it’s rain lightly , he covered me with the umbrella in his palm , with every single action he takes , i feel that i’m safe under his care .. but , he get wet after all .. oh my sweetie , dun fall sick pls.. we switched off all the electricity in his home .. it’s so warm , but the room is filled with the aroma of love .. when the love grows , all i know is he loves me .. his tender , concern , gentle , caring are the combination of his greatest love to me .. suddenly , i feel that GOD gives us all the wrong men in the beginning of our lives , so that when the right one appears , we are smart enough to appreciate them , and be together forever with them .. i barely understand , he is the one i starved for .. he is the grancious gift from the lord .. he looked in my eyes and i did the same thing like him too .. he smiled , and said that i’m doll alike , and i seemed like fake ppl , i dunno wat the fake ppl meant , but i think he want to describe me as robotic person .. do him ? huh .. he said he loved me , more than everybody else .. how sweet he is .. so , with these , i can prove that a man falls in love through his eyes while a woman falls in love through her ears .. we rather listen to the sweet words and honeyed phrases than the reality , right ? haha .. but , my prince pampered me , not jz the honeyed phrases , but for every single he takes , he shows he loves me deeply .. we burnin candles around us , with a warm and peaceful fire , burning with our sweet desire .. with a slow song played by my hp , the lyrics are written with the passionate words .. all of these beautiful things in the dark are so gorgeous , because he is with me .. we belongs together .. with such romantic atmosphere , our love is so expressed , in so many ways , in such dark but serene town ..  we will love forever , to his heart i’ll be true , the sweetest chains have bound me to him .. thanks to 月老公公,恩赐我那么一个好男人。

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today i fall in blues .. dun even know why i feel like this .. maybe i’ll leaving him soon , IF i go to further my study .. firmly , i’ll go to other state , kt is sux .. UMT & USCI splashed icy water towards me .. bullshit .. wat the fu*king course they provided .. now i feel like drowning in the deep blue sea , my heart filled with sorrow .. just sorrow .. i didn’t expect that i can move until this step , to the ‘ IVORY TOWER ‘ . but as my parents wish , im being compelled .. baby boy , how could i wish u can go with me .. but u have to inheritance ur daddy’s business .. u have ur career , so am i too .. i have my education . u know , i dont wish to go .. but , if i go u must take good care of yourself .. recently the weather is inconsistent , so u must follow my orders as usual that u have to do .. i still believe , someday u and me , achieve our desire , build the perfect bemarriage that the other people never had .. u always want me to be the happiest cheerful girl .. without you , will i ? hmm .. but even though the world seems like it’s falling around u , never lost hope .. cuz there’s always a light amidst the darkness .. im ur lighthouse if u feel sorrow , hopeless .. im the shore if u lost in the ocean .. just follow ur heart if u need me , ur heart will guide u where u wan to be .. u’ll never lost in my heart .. i love you ..

jz finished chatting by the phone. im being flustered. im starting worry about my future. wat will i be when i grow up,so does him.. sigh.. of cuz.. i need to complete my further studies while he needs to collect as much money as we can afford our perfect marriage.. he plans to inherintance his papa’s immortal business.. but, i suggest dat we better have our own career. he supports my fact. he doesnt have his own opinion. dat why,i get mad tonight. he get insulted by me.. of cuz.. as usual, he rebelled me back. but finally he gets sober.. he realized dat wat i belebeh were right. so he lowering his stupid head and apologize.. im the boiling uncoagulate lava, how can i stop this all? i kept belebeh and belebeh.. he jz in the sound of silence and didnt dare to make a sound. dats why he mocks me as the mother bear. when im in a good mood, i might take good care of all the things surround me. when im not,i can be described as a mother bear rawrling when she is protecting her little bears against the wild animals.. wu.. i think im a caring mother bear of cuz. bcuz im too sweet for deserve the name of ominous mother bear. suddenly he cried out. i dun even know why he will do so. his sound turned weird,followed by his sok sek sok sek voice when he tried to say something. i was so uncruel enuf to continue our topic. so,i told him dat i wan him to be a good daddy,and i will be a good mummy.perfect daddy and mummy will born little baby. little baby will spend his life with both of his daddy mummy. daddy works works and mummy cooks cooks. baby sleeps sleeps and wait wait to grow up. baby drinks milk milk and grow big big. baby big big guai guai study. study good good earn money for daddy mummy. so we will be perfect family dat everyone will envy for. he smiled back. he extravagant demands for a perfect family. of cuz, jz v me lar .. cuz v other one else he wont be blissful. leyley is the perfect and sweetest wife wat~ ^^ ops.. i have overflow self-satisfaction eh~ nvm,it’s good.. may GOD will lead us to the desire soon.. Leyley Luenluen Baby 1314!

yesterday , we talked about some sensitive and sentimental topics .. he knows , i alwiz cry for him , because of his weakness .. sometimes , when i see his smile , i will even crying without saying a word .. i’m so so so gratitude to see his smile .. it’s so sweet ! am i weird ? hah .. i do think so .. im a big ‘ ham po po ‘ , a big crying hyppo !! we neva talked about wat was bothering us and we just kept everything inside. but suddenly , we heard a strange voice came from behind .. someone is calling his name .. a girl’s voice eh ?! we looked behind , and saw 2 women came across .. one is ah po then one is younger .. a daughter brought her mummy to shop around Giant eh ? he greets both the aunties , and then the popo praised me .. huhu .. the popo observed me for some minutes , then started to praise me .. she said to him it’s lucky to have a grilfren like me .. she praised my pretty and politeness .. and she said i suppose to eat much healthier food cuz i looked pale .. she oso said she knows im a good girl since her first seeing me .. i felt so weird because i have been praised by his elder relative .. i dun even know why did she say so .. but my six sense told me i will forever be v him , my dear .. after saying goodbye with both his relatives , we kept make our shipping done .. we bought 2 packets of vege meats .. one is satay flavour and the other is bbq flavour .. tmr i’ll cook for him .. after the payment , we stepped ourselves to the thai fair .. he bought a flower necklace for me .. it’s so beautiful .. i love it so much .. he said ‘ only his beautiful princess has the material enjoyment , no matter how expensive and hardest way to gain it, he will gain it for me ‘ i was so touched .. i gave him a big hug , and my tears began to drop .. in the car , both of us were surrounded by the romantic atmosphere , combined v the love song , sarah mclachlan - ordinary miracle .. we were being infatuated with such atmosphere and we started hugging , followed with french kissing .. we swallowed each’s saliva .. it tasted so sweet !! i lying at his shoulders , and we heard our heart beats beating together .. it’s such a miracle eh ? same rythm , same tempo .. : ) he stroking my head , and said nothing will tears us apart .. i suddenly think back the scenes i broke his little heart and he dropped his crystal clear tears .. i felt so so sorry to him .. i promise , i will never break his heart again ..

it’s raining outside .. he’s on the way home . im quite anxious .. nothing is dangerous than dat .. i keep pray and pray .. wish he will reach home asap .. my heart is restless thinkin of him .. i can feel , my every heart beat is done for him .. my sweetest guy , amitofo bao you ni pin pin ang ang hui dao jia .. dear , u r havin fever right now .. why dun u stay at home ? u’d rather destroy or even sacrifice ur health for ur job responsibility .. but ..  ever u think for ur health ? u r kinda easy to fall ill .. ur health is better than ur job , know ?  u r such a good guy .. i will be proud of u .. u consider everyone with ur great , pure and naive heart .. dat’s why u are welcome by anyone .. but im the most luckiest person. i won ur heart the most and we appreciate our love .. thx GOD for granting me such a grancious gift .. i love you ..

今天是第4天了，大花终于没那么忙忙了。。不过他的心情，谁能了解?不过，坚强的他还是那么开朗，内心是怎样，没人知道。。他真的是个坚强的女孩。遇到挫折，还是勇敢的面对。这件事，我也是感到很伤心。毕竟跟他那么多年的知己，也常常去他家。虽然跟他爸爸说话的时间不会很多，但是多多少少伤心都有的吧。。但是，既然这是天意，那我们只好默默接受吧。。也许uncle在另个世界会活得更开心。会保佑大花的家人过得平平安安。希望他不会为了此事荒废了学业，记得我们要考到好好的成绩，然后去学化妆的噢！(事实上很不逻辑)。大花的爸爸也希望可以在天上看见微笑的大花噢。。人命真的很短暂。。所以在我们有生之年要活得有意义，别浪费了生命。。还有记得要珍惜身边的每个人，不管是坏人，还是好人。谢谢他们曾经在你生命中出现过。。不要等到失去了才会后悔。别让后悔这两个字在你生命中逗留过。。希望uncle在九泉之下安息。。也希望大花永远幸福。。

today is cloudy，reflects to my mood. our beloved fren passed away this morning. he had been struggling for 4 days and today, he went to another world. in the noon, we received this info from his form teacher. really cant believe dat finally he has gone.. we went to the muslim mourge to pay him a last respect. he left peacefully, but, i really hard to accept this reality. he was our fren.. we played together, chit-chatted together.. and.. during the recess time, we ate together on the same table. sometimes, he tricked me.. sometimes, he harassed me.. i stil remember.. last year july, i was facing some love problems and used to be very frustrated and even collapse.. he played an important role to cure me up. he was our ‘ pistachio nut ‘ ( dunno the spelling ) , ‘ kai xin guo ‘.. it was an accident. but, he not supposed to die.. the person who knocked him which is the cibaiest person is still free.. he repudiates his fault to my fren.. but,my fren didnt tie his helmet too. u left us, without saying a world. why..? my tears flow down to my cheek, drop to my shirt. khairul, resting in the heaven. ur God might take good care of u.. eventhough u are not around. but remember, we will always be ur fren ! it’s a good way for u to extricate from the pain too.. u rather chose the death than struggle in the pain.. but, everyone will die. who knows when? only time.. we will meet in the heaven.. maybe after 50 years, either.. forget u? absolutely not! forget us? maybe u will.. i appreciate all the time we spent together.. im sorry i ever hurt u.. last, send my condolence to his family.. mourning for 10 seconds..

rest in peace, my fren..

today is extremely hot. jz now i went out v dahua and we exposed to the sun, we sweated a lot. hmm.. but no idea, excursion is our weekly job, especially saturday. we strolling around and around, with my little green horse. i ‘anchored’ my little green horse at a shady place. why did i say so? either my little green horse is a ship? dat i can put the anchor to stop it’s move? hmm.. guess~ aiya.. nowdays my appetite opens greatly. i eat crazily. this might turns me to chubbier girl neh. eh hmm.. no idea,i jz donated my blood to charity. my blood circulation became so well and i become energetic,active and easy to get starve.. i was so brave! finally i have the courage to donate my blood! im so proud of myself huh! yest night dahua sent me a song. a meaningful song,titled ‘ 爱你十分累几分‘ eh.. i figured out i was wrong, not ’累’,is ‘泪’.  now we are young, we are perception and do anything dues to our mind. guys.. think throughly. aren’t u think everything is love? hmm hmm.. this is an advice from my aunt. she told me dat when we are yound, we think everything is love. but when we start seeing the true colours of it, and we will learn from our mistakes and know it isn’t so. fer girls, y dont we become capable woman? we jz think to show our feminization for guys so they wont leave us, right? oh oo.. ‘aku ketahuan~’ suddenly miss this song so much eh.. dat was the 1st time i went up to the stage bravely and sang this song with my ‘6al-saf choir’. i sang the chorus part by solo neh.. the song like this ‘ oh oo, aku ketahuan,pacaran lagi,dengan dirinya,teman baikmu..’ x2 after finished my last sections, i won applauses from muh fans~ hahahaha.. ops! am i too filled by self-confidence? =p it’s good eh.. at least i have opportunity to perform in smk tengku bariah,an obsolete well-known sch. phew.. im outta topic eh.. let’s back to da point. all girls are hope to be loved, guys, y dun u spend more love to us? i dun meant to u, dear.. i appreciate ur sacrifices and everything u made to me. for those boys who sliced the girls’ heart in to broken pieces, isn’t u glad to make a tearful scene? stop it now! viva born to be loved,not hurts!